The "Let it out" Thread

It's not just here that's upsetting me. It's everyday life. I've been harrassed at school, gotten suspended, and have had fights with my parents. It's just everyday life. It's taking a toll on me.

[RBS]

thanks for those kind words someguy.

I am quite a bit older. I studied programming languages at Texas A&M University in the late 70's with punch cards. CRT monitors were just coming into use and the Internet was just something I heard whispers about. The computer gaming possibilities fascinated me but believe me it was a LOT of math.

Remember that computers are just a lot or circuits and math inside. People controlling other computers you are online with should not control your emotions and actions. Switch that junk off. I read in absolute horror of the MySpace suicide of that poor girl who did it just because others used computers to be mean to her.

That won't ever happen with me and I hope it never happens to you ever again.

RBS, you have always made me feel good. You never said a mean word to me. Your one of those people, who, when met by a new person, makes that person feel like their talking to an old friend.

Mistery, I know your always there for anyone. I appreciate that coming out of a friend like you. You are the pinnacle of this place. The epitome of friend. I feel as if I should apologize to you too. You've put up with a lot of my crap, and have handled it better than even my parents. Saying and looking at all of this actually kinda makes me want to cry, but it's true.

[Mistery]

@Party
I'm sorry that nobody has replied to your post. I've been so busy in the past weeks, that I couldn't be around much, nor check all threads.
As Crimson said, it's always difficult and painful if you break up with someone - both persons need time to get over it. But maybe you'll have the chance to explain to her that you didn't break up with her because of people telling bad things about her, but your real reasons. Good luck on sorting it out with her!

@Someguy
I'm sorry about your troubles you're having. Unfortunately if someone gets into serious fights with others, things won't be the same for a while.
If you feel that bad, maybe you should consider to visit a school councilor, or another person with professional background who might be able to help you. Suicide is never a good solution. I hope that you'll be able to resolve your issues with some support, and find some place where you feel home. Good luck for that!

[RBS]

I never forget the primary purpose of logging onto GH Forums is for the games and for the help I can get when I am stuck on a puzzle.

But do I get depressed about it if I can't work something out...nope.

Given enough time everything works out and all the young people in here with all this angst have plenty of time.

But lets remember this a gaming oasis first.

Someguy, I feel terrible for ya and just wish I could unburden some of what you are feeling.

This forum does not make me as happy as it once did. I don't feel at home when I come on anymore. I will be the first to admit, I've gotten into fights with some members. I would like to apooligize too those, Crimson, Sandbox, Lilliput, for what I said and did. There are some people though, who I will hold grudges against forever.
But that is not why I type this. I type this because I no longer feel welcome here. It feels just like another generic forum that I go to daily. Not like the place that made me feel happy and welcome as it did a year ago. There are some people nice to me here, there are some people who shun me here. There are even a couple who have threatened me with violence and death. Through it all I tried to stay happy and be nice to who I could.
If I could take what I said to the ones I feel sorry towards, I would take it back and make sure it never happened. But that is not the case. They may hold grudges against me forever too. I am under much stress right now, and have contemplated suicide more than once in the past couple of weeks.
It is with this that I resign from gamershood for the time being. I may come on to finish up my story, or say hi to a couple people every now and again. But my fun times are over for a while. I am not happy here, and I don't want to hurt any more of you.
May your futures be bright and happy, and hopefully, you won't end up like me.

Edit: I would like to also say that I am sorry for you party. I didn't mean to make you feel ignored. I have been kinda busy. I am sorry to hear about your relationships with your GF and your friend. I just hope you can come to terms with your friend. I wish the best for you, and want you to know that your one of my favorites

[Crimsonthread]

Party, I'm also sorry that you're feeling ignored--I don't think that was anyone's intention. Ending relationships is never easy, regardless of the situation. I can understand not wanting to have one long-distance, too--I've never been any good at it. You might try writing a letter to her, explaining your reasons... sometimes it's a lot easier to get out all your feelings on paper. I hope it all works out for you both.

[Lilliputt]

I'm sorry you think we don't want to help, party. I believe many want to stand up for ya but it's very close to the holidays and most are simply occupied with other matters.
I really am the worst at this sort of thing but if you want to I will listen
I don't think you have any reason to feel bad about what happened from what I can tell by what you are writing and I agree that long distance relationships are difficult. However, if I understand you then you seem to feel guilty about how it ended. It's easy to blame one self for things that one doesn't really have much control over like what a person might think of you or what they might think of your reasons for for example ending a relationship. But I hope in time you will be able to sort it out together and hopefully your friendship will be stronger.
I dunno if this helps but I tried my best Hugs from da little old lady

[ForeverJoseph]

holy crap i broke up with my girlfriend yesterday and she started crying and stuff. she already knew i was becuz my so called "frend" told her which didnt make it any better. i kno she thinks i did it becuz ppl talk bout her to ma alot but it was just becuz im not good at long distance relationships (she lives in a different city like right next to mine but goes to different skool and cant go anywhere by herself) but w are still frends but for some weird reason i feel like crap and still get that weird feeling when i talk to her. what do i do?

edit:well nvm since ppl seem to not wanna help me of course thanx 4 making me feel even worse peaple!!:

[EscapeGirl]

@Crimson, momo, and CF....I'm so sorry to hear of all your losses. Spend time with your families and support eachother, and remember the good times you shared with those you lost. I can't say I relate, as I was never blessed with the opportunities of knowing any family outside of my mom and brothers (and now their wifes and kids. ). But I do know that it's very hard and painful to say goodbye to those you love. 's for you all. I'm so very sorry for the late reply, as well.

[RBS]

Oh dear Crimson I am very sorry to hear that. My thoughts will be with you. I had a wonderful Granny too that I lost 10 years ago and if it is any consolation I quickly got over the grief and realized what wonderful gifts she gave me: Love of playing Scrabble and the joy of growing things to name a few. There is something special about a two generation spaced relationship I can't really explain. I do know that I never ever let go of her despite losing her physically. She is with me always.

[Crimsonthread]

@Mistery--Thanks for your kind words. Granny passed away last night.

[1momomo124]

thanks mistery i might write him a letter

[Mistery]

aww cf i'm sorry my grandpa died last year on presedent day i went to the wake but i got the flu on the funeral so didn't go. now i feel i never got to say good bye to him

Momo, the funeral is one occasion to say goodbye in a sort of ritual, but if you feel you would like to do so, you can still do it "in private". Maybe you have the chance to visit his grave, and say goodbye, or you can also write him a goodbye letter, or put a photo of him on your desk and tell what you would like to say to him. There are more ways to do it than attending the funeral

Well, I've arrived in my hometown and got to see my grandmother. She's in pretty good spirits, but definitely not doing well. We moved her from a nursing home into a hospice house today. The nursing home and hospice staff have been so supportive and helpful--I'll be eternally grateful to them. It's hard to see her so weak and feeble... but she's at peace with everything, and is ready to "go home."

I'm glad to hear that the staff has been so supportive, and that she will be taken care of in the hospice by a helpful staff
I hope that she won't have to suffer, and can go whenever her body and soul is ready

[Crimsonthread]

Well, I've arrived in my hometown and got to see my grandmother. She's in pretty good spirits, but definitely not doing well. We moved her from a nursing home into a hospice house today. The nursing home and hospice staff have been so supportive and helpful--I'll be eternally grateful to them. It's hard to see her so weak and feeble... but she's at peace with everything, and is ready to "go home."